Guys, this is too much. I keep waiting for the worst to subside, but it is somehow just continuing to get worse. I don’t know how to make it better, and it scares me.
soneaselene said: call them! even if you think you don’t 100% need it, it might prevent you from actually needing it later on. *strength and courage*
Gah, you’re right, I just feel sort of silly doing so, if that makes sense. But it would at the very least be a preventative measure, so I’ll just grow some balls and do it x) Thank you for the good vibes!
@abipolarteddybear reblogged this from gestureofmybrain and added:
Yeah, I suppose you’re right. I suppose that it feels a little silly, though? Like, I feel like I should be just be an adult about it at this point. But it’s been so hard, harder than I could have imagined possible.
But seriously, thanks! =)
So, day four since the break-up. Things seem to be getting worse rather than better. Should I call the suicide hotline? Not to seem melodramatic. But things aren’t going well.
That moment when drinking isn’t even that at helpful anymore, but you don’t want to cope with the hangover. So you keep drinking.